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I came back to the Valley for reading break, and it's kind of sad because I don't really have many friends left here. The Comox Valley is not a fun place to be without your friends. There is a profound lack of stuff to do other than hang out. At a bar, at a house, at the lake, at the beach, in the park, at a show. I'm not open and friendly enough to go to a bar or club alone. I always thought I was outgoing enough to do so, but I don't think I am.

I'm going to NIC tomorrow morning to work in the library. I think it will make me miss the UVic library a lot. I love being up on the third floor surrounded by old important looking books, and going up onto the floor commonly known as 3 1/2, except I just made that up so not really. But it SHOULD be floor 3 1/2, or 3 1/4. I think next time I'm in the library I'll just spend 3 hours sitting in the occult section, pretending I'm an expert on Vampyrs and witchs and demon lore. Like the rogue demon slaying nerd that I am.

I've also decided I'm not good at being alone. I'm emotionally needy like some sort of really emotional person that needs close physical and emotional contact to stay sane. I'm afraid if I go on much longer without somebody, I might become a giant slut. Hahah, no, not really. But I may just become rash and lose some of my inhibition that is so important these days.


In other news: I'm so bored at home right now, luckily I have Jasper because he's warm and cuddly. Jasper is my puppy. He is a schnoodle, and he is my mom's third child that she's always wanted minus the lack of housetraining. She pretty much takes better care of him than her other two children.